happy easter!

today is going to continue to be a great day...all day yesterday all i heard was how nasty and raining it was going to be today, especially this morning, and i was thinking "great, i have to walk to church (b/c there is no parking) on a nasty easter sunday" but God did not allow that, he made this morning beautiful, and it is not until right now that the clouds are starting to show themselves...after alot of church this morning charles and i went out for easter lunch (yum, chinese), then the easter bunny came (yeah!!!) i love acting like a child...and now it is time to lay on my couch, watch a movie, and take a nap...glorious...thank you God...

hard work pays off

it feels so good to know that my hard work has paid off...classes are rough this year, their hard and being busy makes them even harder, but last week i started to fix that...i studied, studied, sutdied, and then studied some more, and it worked...my physics grade was in serious need of a boost, and i knew i had to do it now, and it worked!!! i was sitting on a solid C in the class, which some people might be okay with in such a challenging class, but my GPA cant drop any more if I get accepted to pharmacy shchool or ill lose my spot (still keeping my fingers crossed that i even get accepted)...anyway back to my story, so i studied over 16 hours this weekend ( i would have studied more but i worked for 8.5 hours on saturday), and now i have a B...hopefull on the next tet i can pull it up even more...this is a great start to my spring break!

well some one had to do it...

what can i say, i am a girlfriend in every sense of the word....check it out

thank you all

thank you to everyone that i just spent the past week with, the show came together as it always does and was great, i enjoyed working with everyone, but to tell you the truth, i am enjoying my quiet night of studying more!

well, thats is...my last opera at UAB, hopefully not my last one ever...and you know i am happy right now, probably b/c i can actually sit and breathe...i have already gotten alot accomplished, but i have so much left it feels like i haven't even made a dent...i have a physics test next week and honors recital, concert choir and chamber choir music, deciding if i want to do a senior rectial (and if yes, planning it), as always just trying to understand what is going on in my classes, oh yeah and i get to go back to work this weekend, money!!! maybe my next post will be more exciting, my body is still recovering now, i should be back to normal, towards the end of this week...i hope!!!

one down, one to go

oh my gosh i am so exausted, yet i want to do something...last night was opening night, and it went well, the only mistakes we made were little ones and we covered them really well...but now as i sit here at my home my brain is telling me sit, relax, and rest, but my body is saying get your lazy but up, you need to be doing something...my brain isn't in good enough quality to study, i don't have cable, my poor bank account can't handle a shopping spree, and charles is at home cleaning his house, so what do i do...i know i should listen to my brain and just rest, but that is so hard when you are use to running around like a chicken with his head cut off for 18 hours a day...but i guess i'll try, i know i should...

DELIA AS A BOY

yes, playing a young boy...why, you may ask...well for opera...coming soon "The Marriage of Figaro" it's gonna be good....here's the plot...many of my friends and family have asked, why didn't they just get a boy to play your role, well here is the history of the "pants role" (scott)...so when and where?

March 11 & 13, 2005

UAB Opera presents Mozart’s

“The Marriage of Figaro”

7:30 p.m. March 11 and 2:30 p.m. March 13.

John Ray directing.

Alys Stephens Center,

Sirote Theatre, 1200 10th Avenue South.

Ticket prices are $15, $20 and $25. Call (205) 975-2787 for information (or call me)

so wanna see some pictures??? (now realize that these are not our final costumes)

Countess (in purple) Maggie Hendricks

Susannah (in brown) Caroline Lopez-Spears

Figaro (only real boy) Chris Carter

and me!

so...do i look the part, respond with your feedback...

you just gotta push through it...

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so its that time of the year...you know the time where eveything is happening in the shortest possible amount of time, and all you can see is the above brick wall...i have no motivation, i see everything that i have to do (Figaro, physics, organic, recitals, federation competition, audition, the list goes on) and just do not know where to begin, and thus fail to do as much as i should....well that is changing as of yesterday, i got my second physics test back and have decided that i can not continue on the track that i have begun...if i want to be successful i have to change my course,work harder, study harder, and just get all my ducks in a row .

(cute huh)...so thats it, i have made up my mind...i better start studying, have a wonderful day...

scared, well maybe a little...

"NO INTERVIEW...WHAT?"

that is what is still going through my head...i went for my pharmacy school "applicant day" this past friday (a fun day of waking up at 445 and driving, then sitting, then driving some more)...so we got there and stood around in the lobby for a while, which was okay b/c i got to see some people i used to work with at the Bureau, then they hearded us up into the conference room to listen to people talk...i really enjoyed listening to these professors talk and was trying to imagine what it would be like to take a class from them, then we took this horrible critical thinking test (not fun), went to lunch, had a tour, got measured for our white coats (despite the fact that over half of us won't get in), and talked with Dr Wilson about or transcripts....that is it...NO INTERVIEW, you see i wanted an interview, i wanted to meet and talk with falcutly that i did not know and for them to get to know me...you see my grades are just average compared to all of the other applicants, yes i do have work experience but not much service or leadership in the past two years (nothing compared to the sorority girl i was sitting next too), my PCAT score is, eh, comparitively okay, and thats it, those are the only things that are considered...i wanted an interview, i wanted to explain why i am getting 3 pre-reqs this summer (with a session that ends 8 days before pharmacy school begins), i wanted to tell them how i grew up around pharmacy and how i am interested in it, want to help people understand more about what they are taking, and how i believe that God is calling me into the field, but NO, i get to do none of that...i am simply a number 1-9, hopefully closer to 9 than 1....here is how it works:

• GPA (possible total 4 pts)
• PCAT (possible 2 pts)
• leadership, service, work (2pts)
• critical thinking test (1pt)

that is it...those four little things determine the rest of my life...and with an applicant class of 350+ with about only 60 regular applicants getting in...yeah i am starting to worry, but as hard as it is i am trying not to worry, to remember that it is not in my hands, not even the professors hands really, it is ultimatly up to the big guy, so if you have the time and don't mind, throw out a little prayer for me, that my will and Gods will are the same, and if not, that i will be able to accept it, thanks yall....

love soon

I know you've been sworn

I read your complaint

you're needing someone older

and though I've been warned to live day by day

there's something taking over

did you expect to kiss me one time

while looking at me with the same eyes ever again?

so come on and face it

so come on and face it

it's time that we say it

you can cross the line whenever you want to

I'm calling it love soon

close your mind and waste some time if you have to

I'm calling it love soon

it's not about you now

it's what we are

your mother complains that you need a man

you haven't mentioned me yet

and all of your friends don't know who I am

I've been your best kept secret

I understand I wasn't part of the plan

a dollar short, a minute early

but I am your man

so come on and face it

so come on and face it

it's time that we say it

you can cross the line whenever you want to

I'm calling it love soon

close your mind and waste some time if you have to

I'm calling it love soon

it's not about you now

it's what we are

let's bypass the bullshit and move on because

the minute hand moves faster than you think it does

and by no fault of yours and by no fault of mine

the bottom line is laying in the bed that we've been playing in tonight

you can cross the line whenever you want to

I'm calling it love soon

close your mind and waste some time if you have to

I'm calling it love soon

it's not about you now

it's what we are

*john mayer*

"few things can be mastered without times of testing"

this was a quote that our preacher used today in his sermon and it really stuck with me...now i really believe that this quote is true in all aspects of my life

• my school life, probably the most obvious, you can't master a class unless you do well, and typically this is measured by your tests that happens over time, hence, time of testing
• my love life, i have been tested many times, whether this be temptation, trials in a specifc relationship, or even an entire relationship all togethher...i see each of these as a test in my ability to love myself and others
• my family, with all the curves that are thrown families these days, my family has also had it's share of "testing times," some times that i even wondered if we would pull through, we have had many tests
• my spiritual life, all of the above help contribute to my spiritual life, each of the above tests ultimately play a role into my faith, and where i feel that the direction of my life is going and more importantly being led...

but here is what i realize about all of these above tests...they all work together to help shape who i am...if my school wasn't difficult at times i don't think that i would work as hard, if my love life and family life had not had there times of tests and confusion i don't think i would appreciate all of my family and friends as i do, and most importantly if i hadn't had testing times in all of these combined aspects of my life i don't think that i would have the spiritual relationship that i have right now...each of these tests teaches me something...through each i have learned an important lesson about my life and who i am, each of these tests are wonderful gifts from God...so this lenten season i am going to try to not look at each difficulty i encounter as a test, but as a lesson that will teach me something that will ultimately shape the person i will be tomorrow...

some up there loves me...

okay, so this will make more sense if you read my previous post...but it, the stupid additional charge on my account, disappeared!!!poof, it's gone!...so i figure, oh they must have deducted it from my scholarship, so i went online to my bank (a wonderful invention) and the entire scholarship was deposited into my account, i have no idea where this evil fee went, but rest assure i will not go looking for it...thank you God for small miracles

financial aid can just kiss my...

GRITS, THEY CAN KISS MY GRITS....im trying to keep this blog PG....so i really really dont like the financial aid at uab...here's the story:
so i applied for a small scholarship from the hospital that my mother works at back home, and i got it...yeah, this is good...now the bad part...evidently this scholarship (that actually is meant to reimburse me for the tutition that i paid) put me over the estimated amount of money that uab has so graciously decided i need to live on, and therefore they took back part of my private personal loan (that allows me to pay my bills with out working full time), translation...now i owe the school because i got a new scholarship...another way of looking at it, i get a scholarship from a source outside of uab and uab decides that i do not need the entire scholarship so that take almost half of it...this is pretty much what has happened...and my biscuits are very, very burned right now....arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some pharmacist I'm going to be...

so I've been studying nonstop for, well, for a long time, and tonight i had my organic test...i really thought it wasn't too bad, which worries me, when i get over confident i tend to do badly, so im trying to not get to happy about how i felt about the test...however, there was one question that i know i missed, and as a pre-pharmacy major i should not have missed it...the question was dealing with mass spec, it gave the M+ peaks for claritin and asked what the halogen ingredient was, i evidently missed that day in class and so i had no idea what the answer was, so i guessed...i guessed bromine, i have no idea why but it was my first instinct and your always told on tests to trust your first instinct...well my first instinct was wrong, i called my parents as soon as i got out of the test and they both told me it was chlorine...then i kicked myself, i should have been thinking like a manufacturer...CLaritn...ChLorine...duh, delia...the thing that bothers me is not that i missed a question on my organic test, but instead that i missed a question about a drug that i should know...i should have known that, i should be reading about drugs more...there is a new goal...

i am sorry

now, many of you may not understand this blog, but the people that it is meant for will...let me first say that i am sorry, i was out of line today when i spoke to the choir...i hope that you all can forgive me, and rest assured, i will not be saying much else, anymore......now, even though my actions were wrong, i don't feel that my intentions were in the slightest, ill explain...this choir,this semester, is the choir that i have dreamed of for over the past seven years of my life, i have dreamed of being where i am right now, that is, in an amazing choir with people who love music...this is also my last chance ever to be here, now many of you will go on for many more years singing with copeland or in other amazing choirs, or even teaching amazing choirs, but for me this is it, my life (where choir is concerned) ends here, now...this is probably why i care too much, yes too much...i think that i expect people to care as much as i do, and i know that some people just don't, whether it be because they are too busy (trust me i know how you feel) or because they have just not been affected throughout their life by music as i have(this is not a bad thing, everyone is defferent), regardless, i understand this, and i am sorry...i am sorry for hurting people and most importantly i am sorry if i in anyway, took away the joy of singing for any person, that to me is the worst thing that i could do...so rest assured, it will not happen again, i am deeply, truly sorry...

the first of the semester, always scary...

okay so t/m is it...my first test of the semester, and it's in physics...is it too much to ask for an organic test first, so that i can at least pass my first test and retain some confidence for the remainding semester...anyway, i digress...so of course what am i doing now but not studying...now doing get me wrong, I've studied a lot today, in fact, between my capa (online homework) and working practice problems my brain is fried...so here's the problem...it's not memorizing the stupid equations (we get them)...it's trying to figure out how to interpret all the information about whatever object is flying at whatever speed, velocity, or acceleration (b/c they are all different)...and it all gets more complicated...so this is my break (well, this and desperate housewives), i have to take it to keep my head from exploding, b/c i don't think that that would be pretty...and now as i run out of things to say about my exciting day of studying, i am presented with the ever challenging question...study more and stuff my brain with more knowledge that i wont remember t/m or just give up for the night and sleep...i usually go with the second option, but of course only wake up early in the morning to study just a bit more (this is proven advice from my mom and copeland), so why mess with a good thing (well, its good most of the time, excluding calculus)...off to bed...but if you find yourself with nothing to do at 11:20 monday morning , drop out a line to the big guy on my behalf, i sure would appreciate it...

shouldn't i be in bed?

so i'm still here at my computer...after my last blog i started reading all the other blogs, which i get to through the choir blog, which i read, and it got me started thinking about choir, which made me think about next week with doc (dr. jordan!!!), which made me think about france...then i read sarah's blog and it got me thinking about how this is my last semester in choir, and how i want it to be the best...this coming week we really need to be at the top of our game, quiet, and absorbing every little drop of knowledge that doc can give us, we are sooo lucky for this opportunity to work with him (copeland you know we love and appreciate you, and hope you do well in LA)...even just listening to the music while you are on your computer, checking your blogs, will help some...i think we just need to eat, sleep, and breathe this music, so that we are able to do perfectly...its going to take alot of work...but i know we can do it...

24 hours ago i was working hard to be positive...i had gotten home earlier that afternoon and tried to take a nap, but after laying in my bed for an hour without even beginning to fall asleep, i gave up and worked on my physics homework...so i woke up at 8 am friday and went to work at 11pm that night, it really wasn't that bad, just more weird...being awake and doing things that i do during the day, while i knew almost the whole world was sleeping gave me such a funny feeling...this feeling helped keep me going, well that and the fact that i was the only decentral pharmacy tech for four hospitals covering about 4 city blocks (translation, i walked nonstop, a lot)...i even made it until 4 am without a cup of coffee, but at 4 i broke down and had one cup, which lasted me throughout the rest of my shift (til 7 am)...it was also weird leaving work, when i usually get there...i cant exactly describe it...just strange...anyway, enough rambling...it's the sleep deprivation...ill fix that now...

so here's the plan...

a positive attitude and lots of coffee...

plan for what you may ask, well for my friday night, i'm working...

now you may be thinking "doesn't delia usually work friday nights?" and this question can only be answered after i clarify some hospital terminology...day shift at the hospital 630am-3pm, evening shift 230pm-11pm (this is my usual friday night), night shift 11pm-7am and this is what i will be doing tomorrow night...for most of my friends that read this, staying up all night may be a recurring event, but not for 'early to bed' delia...no, no, no, i have not stayed up all night in at least, at least three years, actually wait...i remember the last time: prom, my junior year!!! that's five years...well if there was any doubt if i was an adult, that sure settles it, i am officially old...but i can do this, how hard can it be, with a smile on my face and a large cup of joe in my hand...eh, it'll be nothing

(but if it is something, i apologize now for my attitude saturday at opera rehearsal)

now off to enjoy my bed, i know it is going to miss me...

one of those days...

you ever have one of those days when you have sooooo much to do but you lack the focus to do anything except for relax...today was one of those days...now don't get me wrong, i was in class from 8am until about 430pm but after that and a much needed trip to walmart, the most i could do was cook dinner and clean my kitchen...i am still behind in physics, organic, and even computer music...but t/m it is time to buckle down and work hard...i have tests coming up and hopefully i will catch up soon and begin to post a little more frequently, until then my goal, breathe and don't stress...good luck...night

ahhh...

okay, well i do believe that i am one lucky girl...i get beautiful flowers like these on a regular basis, not to mention the fact that charles is so good to me...i never have to worry about much of anything (thats not that i don't, its that it is not necessary)...and t/m morning he is even taking me to breakfast (that is before our 8am classes)...sometimes i just don't know if i deserve it all...but i thank God for it and charles everyday...i hope that you all have experienced or soon experience this wonderful thing...

charles henry, i love you!!!