"not suicidal, just overwhelmed"

So I was procrastinating studying and decided to check my blog. I saw a comment that was written on my last post, that made me realize it really has been forever since I've posted. So I decided to catch everyone (if anyone) who reads this blog up with my oh so exciting life...so what has been up with me...school is going great. I am in the middle of my second year of pharmacy school at Samford, and I love it. It is harder than anything I've ever done in my life. I study more than I sleep, but it is very rewarding and even fun at times. I moved out of my apartment in southside and am now in a house with some of my classmates (4 other girls and two dogs to be exact). When I tell people this sometimes they freak out; FIVE girls in one house. How do yall get along with all that estrogen? And honestly, I haven't ever experienced much else. I mean, that's what I grew up with. For 18 years of my life I lived with my mom, three sisters, and numerous cats (most of which were female). I absolutely love not being in an apartment. It is so nice to come home to a real house after a long day. Every now and again I do miss living by myself, but for the most part, I enjoy having housemates. I am still working like a crazy person; I am still singing at Trinity, working at UAB on my breaks from school, working at Walgreens during school, and have recently started doing a lot of babysitting. It makes for a pretty hectic schedule, but hey, that's what I thrive in. I'm also dating a wonderful guy. He's a yankee, so it makes for some interesting times, but it's great. Overall, life is amazing. When I started college I would have never guessed that at 25 my life would be where it is now, but honestly I wouldn't want it any other way. I have found out more about myself than I ever thought possible and am constantly discovering more of the person that I want to become. This past year, while difficult, has been a complete blessing, and I thank God everyday for what I have in my life and what I see ahead in my future...now I am going to try and post more often, so I will give you a short recap of this year so far...January we were out of classes, I had my second rotation for school (paying tuition to work for free, not that cool). I as placed at a small hospital in Birmingham. It was so different from the atmosphere that I am used to at UAB and reminded me a lot of my time at Baptist in Jackson. I learned a lot and enjoyed it, for the most part. I have always thought that it is important to get different perspectives on everything, and working at a smaller hospital where things are done so differently really allowed me to see new things, and appreciate other things that I may take for granted at UAB (where I have been for the past 5 years). Classes started up shortly after I finished the rotation this past month, and people were not lying when they said that this would be my hardest semester. We are about one month into the classes and I am completely overwhelmed. I am learning a lot, but sometimes I just feel like it is too much. I have a lot of friends (in addition to my parents) that have already graduated and are working as pharmacists, and I love their support. They all tell me that I WILL get through it and it will be all worth it in the end. I look at them as examples and know that they are right and I will survive the next years ahead of me. Yesterday was our first test of the semester, MED CHEM. While I was always good at chemistry in undergrad, med chem is a horse of a different color. Maybe it's the teachers, maybe it's the vast amount of seemingly useless information, or maybe again, it's just the teachers, but this class is truly my downfall. I studied it for countless hours and after taking the test just wanted to shoot myself, but I have learned that I just have to keep working and move to the next test. Next week, infectious disease, a class I enjoy. One of the reasons I enjoy this one so much is that I can see it's application when I work at the hospital. When I can sit in class and learn about a treatment for a certain bug and then a little light goes off and i remember, "oh yeah, that's what that patient had, and hey, that's how it was treated, and it workd!" It really reminds me of why I am doing all of this hard work. I can't wait to graduate and do this everyday!....okay, now it's late and I have class t/m morning, so I probably should go to sleep. I will try to post again next week, maybe even get back into my old habit of posting more regularly. Good night all!

life is good

I never have been able to understand how people can rationalize that God does not exist. I mean, seriously, there is no possible way that everything in our lives could happen the way it does without some type of outside influence. Think about it...Go back to a time in your life when you thought that your life was over. When you felt that there was no way that anything would ever be good again. Whether it was a bad break up, a family crisis, or a major disappointment, we have all had at least one (or in my case all three!). And it never fails, we always think that it is the end of the world, but then something, some how takes that horrible event that you never thought you would get over and turns it into one of the best things ever. The break up that shows you your true friends, the family crisis that teaches you that you have more strength than you ever thought, or that huge disappointment that actually allows you to reevaluate your life and dreams, realizing that maybe what you thought you wanted was not at all what you wanted.
I truly believe that there is no way these things "just happen." And while we can never see it at the time that we are going through our valleys, deep down we should remember that it will all work out because someone up there has our back. Isn't it a great feeling!

My new favorite fairy tale....

Once upon a time, a guy asked a girl, "Will you marry me?"The girl said "No" and she lived happily ever after and went shopping, drank martinis with friends, always had a clean house, never had to cook, had a closet full of shoes and handbags, stayed skinny, and was never farted on.

The End.

my study schedule!!!

SATURDAY 5 HOURS

SUNDAY 7 HOURS

MONDAY 10 HOURS

TODAY 9 HOURS

AND I STILL AM NOT READY FOR MY TEST T/M

PHARMACY SCHOOL ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my gosh....I can't believe it is the middle of October. The time is flying by very fast. I am half way through my first semester!!! I am sorry that I do not post very often, but I am so busy it makes my days as a music major feel like preschool. But I am loving every minute! I have made some great friends and know that I will make plenty more. I study more than I sleep, or at least that is how it seems most of the time. But, I love it, and I would not trade it for anything!!! So now, my last night of fall break, I am going to go read some biochemistry to prepare for tomorrow's class!!! Good night to all!!!

This is a test to see if my bloglines works. I will post soon, pormise.

Thank you Lord for allowing Auburn to win today!!!! Because if they had not, I probably would have had to scrape Charles off of the concrete sidewalk outside of my apartment window.

WAR EAGLE!!!!

AMEN.